“Were you up all night crying?” Emma’s boss laughed in her face. The mockery continued into the next day, Emma quietly closed her office door and said two words to no one. Minutes later he burst into her office and slammed the door. Standing over her, Lieutenant Campbell screamed, "someone said you said..." His face red with rage, his fist coming at her, demanding she answer. Emma screamed, "go ahead and punch me!" During the five months of the investigation all witnesses claimed they didn't hear what she screamed while she was alone with their boss. Emma was served a three-day suspension—she fought it. After a year of more rage, subject of more I.A. investigations, Emma got a transfer to the Division's Aviation Unit. One sunny morning her boss ordered her to take photos of one of their helicopters. One moment she was taking photos with her camera, the next she was lying on the pavement in extreme pain. Emma remembered only a vague sense of falling from the skid and nothing else. The only witness claimed she fell while getting out. Over three hours later, two bosses were standing at her front door asking her how she was doing. One was clearly mad. During her agonizing brain injury recovery, Emma kept quiet throughout their relentless blame of what happened. "We're all wondering why you didn't break your fall." Two years later Emma took off, wandering aimlessly around the country with her dogs until she stopped far away. Under a new sky in Kansas, she dug deep into what she remembered, her notes, medical records, the lack of any investigation, but most importantly the photos she kept all those years and new information she gathered. What she discovered about herself and what actually happened that sunny morning in May all those years ago. What happened next... This predominantly true story, brings out what happened in this case when law enforcement investigates itself. The witness and "subject of" statements included are verbatim statements from recorded interviews, except for names. All statements from reports, state records, emails, the author's medical records, the photos on the dedication page, along with detailed descriptions of the helicopter and buildings are real. The photos included are real. Parts of this novel are the imagination of the author—literary expressions of trauma. See www.samanthacaillatauthor.com for verbatim transcripts of the Internal Affairs interviews, emails and documents